Mah questions, comments, rants, raves, complaints, concerns, and so on and so forth...now...Let's play some tetris!
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January 19, 2004 10:12 a.m. Chuu- People hide things from the ones they love and then when those they love find what they are hiding, they either hate you for it, freak out....and lots of other scary things. I have a secret that is eating away at my soul and I want to share it with my friends so that I don't have to worry about them finding out about it in the wrong way. But...I can't. We're only in Junior high. I don't think they can deal with it. I know maybe...No...not even the biggest wall of support would understand.(she's also has some pretty good smarts in that head of hers in case ya need it ^ ^ but that's off topic.) I figured I would wait until our Sophmore year in high school to tell them, because I decided to go to Real Mesa instead of Oxnard high; but I worry that if I told them that late they might say something like: "How come you never told us before?!" or "Ew! Sick! Sorry but we can't let you hang out with us anymore!". That scares the shit out of me because about three or four of these people I have known from 1st/2nd grade on until now and I don't want to make them hate me. They hated me before, but I've gradually won their friendship again and if I lose it just because of this then I wouldn't know what to do. T_T Man I hate this..... |
| January 18, 2004 10:20 a.m. Chuu- wow...it's so...orange! >=3 *glomps teh kitty* <.<-->.> I forgot that little girl's name...o_o oh well. Taskui- *plays with his fan* -_- sooooo bored..... Chuu- ^ ^ hehehehe I gots new drawings up on my [DeviantArt Page] |
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January 8, 2004 3:06 a.m. Chuu- ._. *went to bed at 6:00 last night* ^ ^ hehe. *prints almost nekkid Kakashi piccie for yoko-chan* o.o mmm sezzi. Tasuki- z.z *rolls over onto teh floor* Chuu- o____o;; *rings a gong* =3 Tasuki O.O bweeeeee! T-T *falls on Chuu* Chuu- _._ help me.. |
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December 31, 2003 12:16p.m. Chuu- My brother talks about me having self-disipline when he is 18 years old now, doesn't have a job, takes one class in college, no goals in life, and lives a party life! >_> I on the other hand have studied medical books since I was in the third grade! I still am! I have my sights set on going to Harvard Medical (@.@ I think they teach medicine at Harvard...I hope so) Or atleast maybe if I cannot become a doctor-- an english major at Oxford! And he says I have no self-disipline! I do not go out drink, get high and what not! No! I stay at home stay online, write my book, or read the medical encyclopidia! ._. does that sound like someone with out self-disipline!!? Tasuki- o.o;; Nope! *plays with his fan* Xellos- e.e *inches away* |
December 23, 2003 8:51 p.m.  Which Naruto Character are You? quiz by orangeday.net 
Take the What High School Stereotype Are You? quiz. 
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Take the What Type of Friend are You? quiz, and visit mutedfaith.com. 
find your element at mutedfaith.com. Chuu- wheeeeeee! *twirls* ^_^ That last quiz sounds sorta like me! Tasuki- n.n *rips open Naraku's presents* OoOoOoOo!!! Socks...shikon shards....*gasp* a bowl of PEACHES! *huggles peaches* hmm let's see....hand made sweater....Malibu Stacy dollie....O.o Nude picture of Xellos!? @_@ Ewhoooo!!!! Yaoi boy! Yaoi boy! n_n Naraku- *blush* -;_;- He opened mah presents....<.<-->.> *tries to blow Tasuki up* Xellos- Tut-tut children! Chuu- -.- Oi vie...*goes back to reading her hentai yaoi stories* -^_^- Harry/Draco ush soooo c00t! n.n |
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December 14, 2003, 5:02 p.m. Chuu- I have decided (even though many would think i'm too young, or just plain crazy) to take every item in my household that should remind anyone in my family unit that I ever exsited and either destroy it or take it with me when I go (which will not be alot of the stuff, most of it will be destroyed one way or another.) I will take my leave and within a year no one will even realize...I ever lived in that family. Xellos- T_T Do I get to come? Naraku, Tasuki- ;.; us too? Chuu ^_^ Hai, you ll get to come with me! Xellos, Naraku, Tasuki- YATTA! *glomps chuu* Chuu_-_ yes well you won't come if you keep doing that... Never there You said you'd never let anyone touch me... You said a lot of things... But none of them were true... You were never there when I asked you to be... You were never there when he touched me... You were never there to fufill your promises... You wonder why I act this way... You wonder why I never take things your way... You wonder why I hate you... Well... I never existed You claim to know me... Who are you? I am not of your blood? I was never in your home... I have never seen you around here before... Who are you? Do not try and prove I was there... I have all of my things, my memories right here... I never even existed... |
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December 14, 2003, 10:20 p.m. Chuu- YATTA! ^_^ Only six more days until mah birfday! o.o So far I know that Nora is getting me....O.o something, Eggroll is getting me (or has gotten already) a set of gel pens, and Chii got me a teddy bear from Hot Topic along with a sticker that says, "My Cat can beat up your cat" =3 Arigatou! Xellos- I got you this! *steals the money from chuu's wallet and hands chuu her wallet* ^______^ Merry birfday! Chuu- >_>;;; DOWN! Bad Xellos! Bad! XD Now.. gimmeh mah money! Tasuki- o____o *wonders what he's doing here* ._. *gives chuu some peaches* Chuu- eeeee!!!!! Momo!!!! *glomps Tasuki* -^.^- my little momo! Tasuki- *wonders why he puts up with this* _-_ Xellos- <.<;;; *plots Tasuki's death* e.e Naraku- *tries to play ddr* @.@ *keeps spazzing out* <_<---->_> *blows ddr up* x3 Chuu- noooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!! T.T my ddr...Bad Naraku! Bad! Bad! Bad! *whaps him with a rolled up newspaper* Naraku, Tasuki, Xellos- O__________O *hides under the carpet* |
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December 8, 2003, 11:36 p.m. Chuu- *dances* Eggroll likes my bookie! Eggroll likes my bookie! Eggroll likes my bookie! wheeee! *twirls* Xellos- n_n that's nice Chuu-san, I like your bookie too. *holds up copy of her journal* Chuu- @_# *twitch twitch*.....DOWN! DOWN! DOOOOOOOWN! Bad Xellos! *take journal from Xellos' "downed" hands* Xellos- @______@ ah eh eh...Chuu you're a meanie...*spaz spaz* |
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Novemeber 15, 2003, 4:45 p.m. Strawberry Gashes: Yea, I know crappy name change but too bad. That's what appears to be scattered all over my arms anyways. People never take me seriously. One says I am too "right" all the time. Another says I am too "wrong". Those who are dearest to me have never truly been for I have finally opened my blind eyes and realized they only use me for reasons of their own. Each in debt to me but refuse to pay it by lying their way out of it. I cannot stand the pain it brings to my heart nor soul. So, I am going to find a way to bring my release from this fucking mortal coil. I will have my freedom or else I will not be held responsible for my actions...Those of you who are in debt to me and read this know who they are and know they are to be held responsible when I find the freedom I so long for...Or...if I take theirs. I will take these words and rearrange them as many times as I need to make my point. I want to find another who will not misuse my kindness, my sympathy for humans and their stupidity. Yes, many think I am selfish and I may be from time to time but they have no idea what I can really be like. They pull their own wool over their eyes and it is not my fault if they do not see it. So I will leave them to ponder what life might be like if I were to slowly, like a departing shadow in a memory; close the door to my heart, my mind, my soul, my body, and my life to them...never to open it again. She walks across the firey plains. Her ruby hair flairing around her like the wings of the pheniox beside her.. The golden dusts shifting lightly beneath her feet as she steps. . Her face marred by the expression of sorrow.. Sorrow for the world as it is now.. Broken.. Dying. Strawberry wine dripping from her amethyst orbs.. A firebird screeching above in calling to its mate. but will never find.. Her heart calls to those who dare to love.. Dare to dream.. Dare to even care.. But also.... to those who are alone.. Darkened.. And lost.. She lifts her gaze to the empty blanket of obsidian over her head.. Intoxicated by the sweet loneliness of hell's abyss.. Turn to her.. See her sorrow.. Feel her pain.. Do no pity her.. Walk with her and she will take you to the most sacred oasis on earth.. The Oasis of The Desert Rose. |
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Novemer 5, 2003, 3:29 p.m. Chuu: Yatta! ^.^ I got a drawing book just like Eggroll-chan's and Yoko-chan's drwing books. I'm so happy. ^-^ Now I can have something to draw in without losing the drawing in my room somewhere, instead remain safe under my bed in it's box in the book. Hotohori-sama: n.n Good for you Chuu. *huggles like mad* Xellos: o.o--^__________^ *draws Hotohori in a bikini* Hotohori: O_o;;; Kowaii Naraku-sama: kukukukuku! I know She'll fill that thing up with lovey drawings of me!Kukukukuku! Xellos: Not true! She loves meh more! >.> Hotohori: <_< She will not draaw the weird and unjust! So...She draw me! ^.^ Naraku-sama & Xellos: Who are you calling "Weird and unjust" ?! Chuu: O.o;;; -.- baka bishies...*skampers off* gang signs off |
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October, 28 2003, 2:39 p.m. Chuu: HAPPY BIRTHDAY EGGROLL-CHAN!!! WE LOVE YOU! ^_^ O_0 I was so giddy in class today it was scaring even me. The sound of whispers and echoy demons singing their song of play. My hands are dripping from the wine they were induldged. Angels fall at my feet, their wings stained by my hands and their own crimson wine. I continue walking at my slow murderous pace. I've slipped into myself, trying to find myself. I can't hide... I can't run... I can't close my eyes... I can't shut out the sounds... No one's here. I drown in the sound of my screaming and cannot cease for fear of silence. All around me there is nothing but the sounds and the dead angels... I am no demon... I am no human I am no real angel... I am a Fallen Angel. Ringing... A bell... I can hear it's ringing.. It's deafening to my ears. Crumble me to the floor and sweep me away... I am oblivious to time and thought. I am no demon... I am no human I am no real angel... I am a Fallen Angel. |
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October 27, 2003 Naraku-sama: kuukukukukuku!!! I knew she luffed me! Chuu: *glomps Naraku-sama* He's just soooooooooooo innocent looking! I can't stand it! It's like looking at a kitten and trying to resist petting it! -^__________^- |
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October 6, 2003, 6:45 p.m. Chuu: ^.^ wheeeeeee!!! *prances around in her kitty tail, kitty ears, and fuffly kitty bow, and spiked collar* xD nwuahahaha! *sings meow mix song in the annoying kitty meowing version* >^*.*^< Xellos:=D Kawaii! *tweaks Chuu's ears* ^_^;; so fun Sesshoumaru: >________>;;; uuuuuuhhhhhhmmm.....Happy New Year! Chuu:FLUFFY-SAMA! *glomp* -^_^- I missed j00! j00 were gone forevers! Xellos: It ain't new years smarty-pants....;-; I not luffed no more.... Chuu: o.o *gives Xellos bunny plushies* Group hug! *huggles plushies, Xellos and Sesshy* |
